Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Where Have My Fruits Gone To?

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and seld-control." Galations 5:22 Lately, I have been pondering the fact that most of the fruits that I am suppose to possess, and have possessed at one time have SLOWLY withered away. It's my own fault, there is no one else to blame. I believe that I have just become so content with my life situation that I have allowed those fruits that are so vitally important to my relationship with Christ to surely slip right out from under me. I can make excuses over and over again, but are they reasonable, or are they just lame, and due to my laziness. Love is not a problem for me at all, but do I love the right things? Am I showing love to those who need it the most, or have I become somewhat of a hateful, ungreatful person? I have joy unspeakable right now, or atleast I feel like I do, but is the joy that I am experiencing TRUE joy? Peace, I'm not really sure that I can say i've come face to face with peace lately. In this crazy little life of mine over the last 7 months, I don't think I've had a peaceful moment. I am lacking patience greatly. Should I ask for more? I know that I am going to need patience like never before once Wesley leaves for Germany and the baby arrives, but what should I do about it now? Do I ask the Father to give me more, or is that just selfishly asking? I'm a kind person, or most people would say that I am, but yes like most I do have HORRIBLE mood swings from time to time, and I can be very hateful when I'm in one of my moods. Goodness, yes I've experience goodness ALOT lately, but have I shown goodness towards others is the real question? Have I allowed other to see that I am truly greatful for the things that they have done for me, especially Wesley and my mom and dad? Lastly, but probably the best of them all self-control...believe it or not I can give a positive on this one. I can truthfully say that self-control is something I have been working hard at over the last 7 months. But the real question is why? Why did I allow my fruits to get away from me? Contentment? Discontentment? Laziness? There could be a world of reasons, but really I dont even know where to begin to look for the answers. I've spent alot of time thinking today, and over the next few weeks, unless the Father sends me in another direction I am going to be searching the scriptures and studying each piece of this verse with a fine tooth comb. I've got alot of work to do, I know this for sure. I need it though. I've come to a dry point, and until I can get my fruits back in order, it will remain that way. Enough Said. Point Taken! I think I just answered alot of my own questions.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Megan and Wes Sitting in a Tree KISSING!

* Wesley sent me these roses all the way from Virginia!!!*
It's been 2 years today that Wesley and I have been married, and I still love every single minute of it. I can not lie and say that every day has been perfect, because just like every couple we've had our ups and downs,but luckily more ups than downs. The last 7 months have been extremely trying at times (since Wesley has been away beginning his new career), and the next 5 months will probably be the same way (moving to Germany and Clark's arrival), but for some reason I have no doubt in my mind that things are going to all just work out great in the long run, and for that I am very excited. I'm so thankful to be married to Wesley, and I couldn't ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with. He has gone above and beyond his calling as a husband, and I know that once Clark is born he will do the same as a father. We've got a lot to look forward to in the years to come, and I know they too will be just as thrilling as the last 2 years we've spent together have been.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Rambling On About Nothing

I decided that since I had not posted any pictures recently that I would do so.In the first photo Wesley and I are enjoying an evening of good seafood, karaoke and just good ole family fun in Panama City Beach, FL. Next is Wesley after a week of field training in Virginia. He sure was a dirty boy, but I love him anyways! Does he look differnt to you? The army really has made him a completely different man, and boy am I proud of him. On Monday we will celebrate our 2nd anniversary. Of course as for most of the major holidays/events that have occured this year we will not be spending this day together. It's unfortunate, but in the long run it will all be worth the while. Wesley found out earlier this week that he we will be stationed in Illesheim, Germany. I've talked to several people and they say its a small farming village of about 4,000 people. I just keep thinking, it may feel like home afterall. Alot of people dont realize that I was really born and raised in the boondocks. Crops, cow pastures, the dairy, one stop light, K-12th school, we've got it all right here in the community of Wicksburg, Alabama. I should, hopefully, adjust just fine. We'll see though. My sister in law and Wesley's brother Danny were stationed only about 25 miles from where we will be and they say it's really not that bad of a place. Well, I don't really have anything else to ramble on about right now, but I promise I've been thinking of something really "great and knowledgable" to blog about next time.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Happy 4th of July, A Few Days Late

Happy 4th of July yall! I'm sorry that I'm a few days late, but good gracious I have been busy. Wesley was home for a few days so things we're a little hectic. We had 100 places to be and just not enough days to be at them all. We had a great time together and are looking forward to him returning back to good ole Dothan on the 28th of the month. 22 days and a wake up he reminded me today! I was thinking yesterday about what the 4th has meant to me over the years, and you know what, i'm sorry to say that it was really just another party for me to attend. I never realized what the day really was all about. This year is different for me though, and it all began as I have watched my husband become transferred into a solider serving in the United States Armed Forces. I have something to be proud of. I am married to a man who has unselfishly given up practically everything to serve his country, knowing that he could be deployed at any moment. He knows that there are dangers and consequences, we both do, but we know that he has been called to serve in "Such a Time as This." You don't find alot of men like my husband, who are willing to count the cost and just go. I realized that Freedom isn't free anymore, and neither is our liberty unless we do the good deed of sharing it with others. We take our freedom for granted so often and do not even realize that we are doing so. After saying all of that my point is, it's not just a big party anymore, but an oppurtunity to say "Thank You" not only to my husband, but to all of those soldiers who have given there all so that I may know freedom. I love and miss you Wesley! You make me proud. Keep up your hard work! On another note, we went to the doctor on Monday. Wesley got to see the baby via ultrasound for the 1st time. He was so cute when he saw his little man wiggiling around on the screen. It's becoming more real to the both of us everyday that we are going to be parents in less than 3 months. We are very excitied, and are looking forward to little Clark's arrival. Best Friend is getting married in 3 weeks and a few days. I can't believe that the time has flown by this quickly. I am so excitied for her. Everything is going to be beautiful, and is going to be more than she could ever imagine. She's marrying her best friend, her soul mate with whom she was destined to be with, and I could ask for anything better than that for her. Good Luck Buddy! Well it's only 10:00 p.m. but the pregnant woman must go to bed. Sleep is a must or else the devil roams about all day long! More to come sooner than later!

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Here & There & Everywhere

Whoa, I did not realize that I had not posted since March. I guess for those of you who do check here to see if I have written, must have thought I had "Left the Building". Life has been crazy the last 3 months, but I will do my best to catch you up.
As I sit here I try to think back to April and remember what happened in that fabulous month, but my theory is; since I've been pregnant I've started loosing my mind and I don't have to remember back that far. Besides my parents 3oth anniversary, Wesley's parents anniversary, and Easter, I just can't remember.
Now, as for May and June. They were both busy months. We had the dance recital at the studio so between finishing up dances, getting costumes touched up, and preparing the little ones for the "Big Stage" it took alot of time. Earlier in the month Wesley recieved his partial orders, and as of now we are in the process of relocating together as a family (FINALLY!!!!) to Germany. We are not sure exactly what part of Germany, but hopefully tommorrow Wesley will recieve his completed orders and we will know where we can call home! He has orders to report on August 17, 2006, but since I'm past the "I can fly overseas" mark, I won't be coming until 8 weeks after the little one decides to make it's grand apperance. On the 18th I went to the doctor and found out that we are having a little boy. Let me just tell you, my youngin has no shame whatsoever. He just rolled right over and showed us his little boy part. I reckon he just wanted to make his daddy proud! Wesley was so excited when I told him he was going to have a son. I had to tell him over the telephone, but I could hear the excitement in his voice! I sure wish I could have been there to see the look on his face when he found out. On the 19th Mr. Creel came to pick me up from the big city of Atlanta and took me to the airport where I departed for a month long stay (June 7th) in Newport News, Virginia. Wesley is there at school so I took the oppurtunity to take a little vacations and stay with my cousin and her family for a week, and then my aunt and uncle for 3 weeks. Wesley and I only got to visit on the weekends, but our time together was great. We went to Colonial Williamsburg, the bay at Yorktown, spent several evenings watching the sun go down over the James River, shopped a LOT (for all 3 of us), ate some real good food, and just spent some much needed, deserved time together. After arriving back in Atlanta on the 7th, it was time to put all the energy I had left into preparing for the "1st Ever Clark Family Reunion". Everyone (around 50 folks) arrived on the 9th, and may I say we partyed until we couldnt party anymore.There was a band, lots of booze (my family likes to drink a little beer/hard liquor every now and again), and may I just say my dad cooked enough food to feed all the Soldiers over in Iraq. When everyone was leaving on the 11th, it was with no energy at all. Everyone was exhausted and ready to just get home and crash on the couch! Indeed, it was great fun, and plans for next years reunion is already in the making! Now for the refreshing part, Wesley will be home tommorrow night at 11:30 p.m. for some good R&R away from the base. He and I, along with most of my immediate family will be spending a few days in Panama City at the beach, taking in the rays and trying not to eat too much! He's only here until the morning of the 4th but hey, a few days compared to the time we've been apart is well worth it.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Here I Am Again On My Own

Well, Well, Well....it has been quite some time since I last posted, but believe it or not, I have not had the time to sit down long enough to even begin to write. Alot of things have been going on, alot of things have already changed, and alot of things will be changing within the next few months.

Wesley left on January 17 for 9 weeks of basic training in Ft. Jackson, South Carolina. I believe telling him goodbye was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I knew I had to let him go though, because joining the U.S. Army has been a dream since he was 14 years old and as his wife, dedicated to spend the rest of my life with him, I want him to accomplish each and everyone one of his hearts desires. We've been able to talk a few times, he has written atleast twice a week and the same for me, but it's just not the same as being together everyday. He is doing well, learning so much, and seems to be so enthusiastic about his new career, and for that I am well pleased. On the 29th of this month, me, my momma, and Wesley's parents will be heading up for his graduation. What a proud family we are!

Next in the news, and probably the best of all....We sold our house the 1st of February, and my mom and I were doing the essentials such as packing up our things, putting things in storage, and making sure the house was clean from top to bottom! I was put in charge of cleaning the bathrooms. As I was cleaning the sudden urge to puke came over me with out any warning. I assumed I was just getting the "stomach virus" everyone else was getting. My mom had other ideas, and suggested we get some pregnancy test. So to make things even better than they already seemed to be, after 3 pregnancy test, the conclusion is...Wesley and I are expecting our first little one around the 10th of October. We are both very excitied, and at the same time in a state of shock!

Wesley will be going to AIT's on April 1st and will be there until sometime in July. The sepreation will still be difficult, but atleast we will be able to talk to one another on the phone each evening, and will get to visit with one another occassionaly. As for where we will be headed next, who knows! It's just a sit and wait kinda game. We are so excitied about all the newness that is occuring in our lives, but there is still alot that has to be done, and alot of decisions that have to be made. I have a strong faith, and in that I find complete reliance on the Father that these decisions will be made with our best interest and the babies in mind.

I'm outta here for now. Just wanted to update those of you who are actually interested in whats been going down in my life! I think for now, I'm back for a while, so keep checking in!