Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Where Have My Fruits Gone To?

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, PATIENCE, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and seld-control." Galations 5:22 Lately, I have been pondering the fact that most of the fruits that I am suppose to possess, and have possessed at one time have SLOWLY withered away. It's my own fault, there is no one else to blame. I believe that I have just become so content with my life situation that I have allowed those fruits that are so vitally important to my relationship with Christ to surely slip right out from under me. I can make excuses over and over again, but are they reasonable, or are they just lame, and due to my laziness. Love is not a problem for me at all, but do I love the right things? Am I showing love to those who need it the most, or have I become somewhat of a hateful, ungreatful person? I have joy unspeakable right now, or atleast I feel like I do, but is the joy that I am experiencing TRUE joy? Peace, I'm not really sure that I can say i've come face to face with peace lately. In this crazy little life of mine over the last 7 months, I don't think I've had a peaceful moment. I am lacking patience greatly. Should I ask for more? I know that I am going to need patience like never before once Wesley leaves for Germany and the baby arrives, but what should I do about it now? Do I ask the Father to give me more, or is that just selfishly asking? I'm a kind person, or most people would say that I am, but yes like most I do have HORRIBLE mood swings from time to time, and I can be very hateful when I'm in one of my moods. Goodness, yes I've experience goodness ALOT lately, but have I shown goodness towards others is the real question? Have I allowed other to see that I am truly greatful for the things that they have done for me, especially Wesley and my mom and dad? Lastly, but probably the best of them all self-control...believe it or not I can give a positive on this one. I can truthfully say that self-control is something I have been working hard at over the last 7 months. But the real question is why? Why did I allow my fruits to get away from me? Contentment? Discontentment? Laziness? There could be a world of reasons, but really I dont even know where to begin to look for the answers. I've spent alot of time thinking today, and over the next few weeks, unless the Father sends me in another direction I am going to be searching the scriptures and studying each piece of this verse with a fine tooth comb. I've got alot of work to do, I know this for sure. I need it though. I've come to a dry point, and until I can get my fruits back in order, it will remain that way. Enough Said. Point Taken! I think I just answered alot of my own questions.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Megan and Wes Sitting in a Tree KISSING!

* Wesley sent me these roses all the way from Virginia!!!*
It's been 2 years today that Wesley and I have been married, and I still love every single minute of it. I can not lie and say that every day has been perfect, because just like every couple we've had our ups and downs,but luckily more ups than downs. The last 7 months have been extremely trying at times (since Wesley has been away beginning his new career), and the next 5 months will probably be the same way (moving to Germany and Clark's arrival), but for some reason I have no doubt in my mind that things are going to all just work out great in the long run, and for that I am very excited. I'm so thankful to be married to Wesley, and I couldn't ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with. He has gone above and beyond his calling as a husband, and I know that once Clark is born he will do the same as a father. We've got a lot to look forward to in the years to come, and I know they too will be just as thrilling as the last 2 years we've spent together have been.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Rambling On About Nothing

I decided that since I had not posted any pictures recently that I would do so.In the first photo Wesley and I are enjoying an evening of good seafood, karaoke and just good ole family fun in Panama City Beach, FL. Next is Wesley after a week of field training in Virginia. He sure was a dirty boy, but I love him anyways! Does he look differnt to you? The army really has made him a completely different man, and boy am I proud of him. On Monday we will celebrate our 2nd anniversary. Of course as for most of the major holidays/events that have occured this year we will not be spending this day together. It's unfortunate, but in the long run it will all be worth the while. Wesley found out earlier this week that he we will be stationed in Illesheim, Germany. I've talked to several people and they say its a small farming village of about 4,000 people. I just keep thinking, it may feel like home afterall. Alot of people dont realize that I was really born and raised in the boondocks. Crops, cow pastures, the dairy, one stop light, K-12th school, we've got it all right here in the community of Wicksburg, Alabama. I should, hopefully, adjust just fine. We'll see though. My sister in law and Wesley's brother Danny were stationed only about 25 miles from where we will be and they say it's really not that bad of a place. Well, I don't really have anything else to ramble on about right now, but I promise I've been thinking of something really "great and knowledgable" to blog about next time.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Happy 4th of July, A Few Days Late

Happy 4th of July yall! I'm sorry that I'm a few days late, but good gracious I have been busy. Wesley was home for a few days so things we're a little hectic. We had 100 places to be and just not enough days to be at them all. We had a great time together and are looking forward to him returning back to good ole Dothan on the 28th of the month. 22 days and a wake up he reminded me today! I was thinking yesterday about what the 4th has meant to me over the years, and you know what, i'm sorry to say that it was really just another party for me to attend. I never realized what the day really was all about. This year is different for me though, and it all began as I have watched my husband become transferred into a solider serving in the United States Armed Forces. I have something to be proud of. I am married to a man who has unselfishly given up practically everything to serve his country, knowing that he could be deployed at any moment. He knows that there are dangers and consequences, we both do, but we know that he has been called to serve in "Such a Time as This." You don't find alot of men like my husband, who are willing to count the cost and just go. I realized that Freedom isn't free anymore, and neither is our liberty unless we do the good deed of sharing it with others. We take our freedom for granted so often and do not even realize that we are doing so. After saying all of that my point is, it's not just a big party anymore, but an oppurtunity to say "Thank You" not only to my husband, but to all of those soldiers who have given there all so that I may know freedom. I love and miss you Wesley! You make me proud. Keep up your hard work! On another note, we went to the doctor on Monday. Wesley got to see the baby via ultrasound for the 1st time. He was so cute when he saw his little man wiggiling around on the screen. It's becoming more real to the both of us everyday that we are going to be parents in less than 3 months. We are very excitied, and are looking forward to little Clark's arrival. Best Friend is getting married in 3 weeks and a few days. I can't believe that the time has flown by this quickly. I am so excitied for her. Everything is going to be beautiful, and is going to be more than she could ever imagine. She's marrying her best friend, her soul mate with whom she was destined to be with, and I could ask for anything better than that for her. Good Luck Buddy! Well it's only 10:00 p.m. but the pregnant woman must go to bed. Sleep is a must or else the devil roams about all day long! More to come sooner than later!