A Weight Has Been Lifted!

We now have a Wednesday night Prayer Service at our Chapel on post and I finally had the oppurtunity to attend last night. It was such a beautiful time of fellowship, praise and prayer. We were small in attendance but BIG in our hearts. This time of small group prayer was a time that I wasn't looking forward to (I don't like for people to know all of my buisness), but I really had something heavy on my heart that I've needed to give to the Lord for sometime and have chosen to just let it fester inside. You see, Wes and I miscarried on Christmas Day after 10 weeks of pregnancy and since then I have been so angry because something that was ordained in the beginning to be OURS was taken away. I've asked why over and over again but I think because of my selfishness being in the way I've been unavailable to hear the answers that the Father has had for me.

I went into the prayer time with these thoughts and feelings on my heart.
-I am angry, not necessarily at God but just angry at the fact that he has taken away something that was suppose to be MINE.
-My joy is gone
-My relationship with my heavenly Father is suffering because of my selfishness. The Father IS indeed speaking to me, but I am choosing not to listen at this time.
-I feel like nobody understands, they've not been where I am, so therefore I'll just keep it all bottled up inside until I can't anymore.

I left the prayer time with these thoughts and feelings IN my heart.

-"For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Matthew 6:21

"The Lord knows those who are his,"
2 Timothy 2:19

"I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. v.22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you WILL rejoice and no one will take your joy away. v.23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. I tell you the truth, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. v. 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
John 16:20,22-24

"I am the good shepherd, I KNOW my sheep, and my sheep know me-"
John 10:14

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.""
Jeremiah 29:11

JESUS ASKED WHY TOO...I'm not the only one :-)

My GOD is ALL knowing.

Just as scripture promises the Lord has NO intentions of hurting me or my family to the point that I would so willingly turn my back on Him. Joy may be scarce in my life right now, but it is not gone for good. In HIS most perfect timing it will be renewed and absolutely complete, and greater than ever. My Father must have known something about me that I was unaware of. He must of known that my body could not physically carry a baby to full term without there being problems in the long run or that there was something wrong with our little one and it would be best to just go ahead and bring him/her home to Heaven to be healed. It was all done to OUR benefit and to bring glory to the kingdom.

Lastly, one of my most precious sisters in Christ here in Germany Carla DID know how I felt,
she has been where I am today and was there herself only a few short months ago. She completely understands and was such an encouragement to me. I know now that because I have a Comforter (who was there before the hard times began) to carry me through, I will make it. I am NOT in this alone. I have an amazing husband and ONE precious baby boy that is ALL MINE (Yes, we have dedicated him to the Lord and we will continue to do so DAILY), I have been given the amazing privilege of begin his Mommy for a long, long time. Here is the awesome thing that God showed me through all of this........ I have one perfect child who is healthy, energetic and was ordained before he was conceived to one day be a Follower of the Lord Jesus. If Clark is all we ever have, he will be MORE than enough!!!!!

Jesus Loves Me this I know
For the Bible tell me So
Little ones to him belong
They are weak and He is Strong
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus loves me
Yes, Jesus love me
The Bible tells me So

To the Illesheim Tax Office We Shall Go

Tommorrow Wes and I FINALLY have an appointment to get our 2007 Taxes done.
This year I was smart and made an appointment instead of doing what everyone else does....WALKING IN! They promise if you have an appointment you will be seen at your appointment time or within the 1/2 hour after your scheduled time.
We've been waiting to get our W-2's since like October so that we could get to the Tax Office the minute they opened their doors in January so that we can get our $1500.00 plane tickets booked back to the States. We're looking forward to heading back as a family.
So PLEASE cross your fingers and say a little prayer for us that we can get in that office tommorrow get buisness taken care of and in the next 7-10 days get our tickets taken care of.
That is if the State of Alabama dosen't make us pay an arm and a leg to them. We'll see. I'll let you know tommorrow :-)

Update on the Lawrenson Family

Here you see the first "Family" photo taken of the
Lawrenson Family since Gwyneth's birth.
Tricia was able to visit with her precious little one in the
NICU for the first time on 25th of January.

Continue to check out their website Nate is very faithful in keeping
everyone posted on the progress of both of his girls

http://cfhusband.blogspot.com

I Want to Pray for My Baby

"At every stage of their lives our
children need and will
greatly benefit from our prayers"
Stormie Omartian

(Clarke Sleeping in His Favorite Chair)

I am currently serving as Vice President Spiritual Life for the Protestant Women of the Chapel in Illesheim, Germany and I love every minute of it. I get the incredible job of seeking out the Father's guidance and choosing the studies that our ladies will be participating in during the semester. "The Power of a Praying Parent" was recommended to me by one of my friends as a 3rd class since we have a lot of new mommy's in our group. I ordered this study as soon as it was recommended and the minute I put my nose in it, I was hooked! I know I long to be that Mommy who prays with and for her children every day. I did decided that we would offer the book as a study and I can't wait to hear the other ladies input. I know I am standing in amazement already and I've just finished Chapter One. I love to read and this book is one that I HIGHLY recommend for any mother or father who has children and also have that strong deisre to pray for their children, young and old alike. So if you my friends wanna pray for those little blessings that are making you pull your hair out :-) run out to Lifeway or check out www.cbd.com and get your own copy!!!

Here are a few quotes and scriptures from the first chapter that really jumped out from the pages.

"Train up a child in the way he should go.
Even when he is old he will not depart from it."
Proverbs 22:6

"Pour our your heart like water before the face of the Lord.
Lift your hands towards Him for the life of your young children.
Lamentations 2:19

"we must cover every detail of our child's life in prayer."

"My husband and I had dedicated our son to God in a church service, but God wanted more than that. He wanted us to continue giving Christopher to Him on a daily basis."

"Prayer is acknowledging and experiencing the presence of God and inviting His presence into our lives and circumstances."

"When we pray, we are humbling ourselves before God and saying, "I need Your presence and Your power, Lord. I can't do this without You."

"Praying in the name of Jesus gives you authority over the enemy and proves we have faith in God to do what His Word promises."

"It's not enough to pray only for the concerns of the moment; we need to pray for the future, and we need to pray against the effects of past event."

"The battle for our children's lives is waged on our knees."

"If we... WATCH Him,
WALK with Him,
WAIT on Him,
WORSHIP Him
and LIVE in His word
WE WILL WIN this battle for our children.

Other Scriptures to for you too look up:
John 16:23, 14:12-14, 15:7, 15:16
James 5:16, 4:7
Psalm 143, 25:14, 34:17, 18:37-39
Provers 20:7
Hebrews 4:12
Isaiah 55:11
Philippians 4:13
Luke 4:7-8
Matthew 12:29, 18:18-19, 21:22
Revelation 12:10
Deuteronomy 32:30
Ephesians 6:4& 17-18

Pass the Prayers Please

For those of you who believe in the extra-ordinary power of healing and of PRAYER please check out Nate, Tricia and Gwyneth's story. I've been following it now for almost 2 weeks and wish I would have fallen upon it sometime earlier. I have seen through Nate's post amazing things that ONLY our Father can do.

http://cfhusband.blogspot.com/

Here is a praise chorus that I just believe fits the situation perfectly,

Holy Wonderful
Holy, Wonderful, Marvelous, Glorious, Omnipotent, Righteous and Mighty,
Lord we Praise You, We lift you up we, magnify glorify,
we exalt you, we extol you, we adore you Hallelujah.

I'm Back and Ready to Go!

HELLO BLOGGING WORLD!

This will be the first post for me in a very long time. I was so busy during the end of 2006 and all of 2007 with a new addition to our family that I completely slacked up on blogging. I think i've finally got a little extra time each day that I can sit down to share my thoughts with you, my friends and family. My New Years goal was to get my blog back up and running and to be consistent in posting, so I hope that you will all stay on my case if I start falling behind again :-)

So, here I am. I've finally come up with a new name for the blog after a lot of contemplating, "Scattered Fruits". My hearts desire in choosing this name is that people that read my blog and people that cross my path on a daily bases would feel that I have scattered just a little of the "Fruit" that the Father has blessed me with in their lives. I want people to know the goodness that has been scattered in the lives of my husband/my soldier Wesley, our 15 month old Clark ,in my life and in the lives of both of our Families back in the United States Let me catch you up on where we are now. Wesley graduated from AIT and headed straight for Illesheim, Germany in August of 2006. Clark was born on September 28, 2006 in Dothan, Alabama and we were able to join Wesley in Germany 7 weeks later. Clark is 15 months old now and growing like a tumbleweed. He is the light of our lives and we count it a blessing everyday that the Father would choose us to be Clarke's parents. We love being in Germany, and as of recently we will be stationed here until Feb. 1st of 2010. Right now we are getting ready for a BIG transition that will separate our family for 12-15 months.

(Clark at 14 mos old)

That's pretty much everything in a nut shell. There is so much good and bad that we were faced with in 2007, but in all I must say we've all come out as stronger individuals with a deeper love for one another and for our Father.

Until Next Time,